The Journal of Jazelle Hawke Tags: Read 182 times / 0 Members and 1 Guest are viewing this topic. The Journal of Jazelle Hawke on November 27, 2011, 01:00:57 AM January 4, 20096:27 pmTo my conscience,Tomorrow morning I go back to Hogwarts for the second half of my sixth year. Things did not go as well as I had hoped at the beginning of Christmas break. I couldn't get through to Johnny and now he's gone. None of us, not even his mom, knows where he ran off to. Even though I was the last one who saw him, no one blames me for his absence. No one expect myself, of course. I should have ran after him. The boy I love more than anything in this world... and I watched him go.I don't have the heart to write anymore right now. I feel... dead inside. I know it's cliche and melodramatic. But it feels as if everything that has kept me going these past five years; everything that has made me feel as if I could conquer anything, is just gone. Like that Backstreet Boys song, Incomplete.I just hope to God he's alright out there, wherever he is. And that he'll find his way home again.~Jazz Skip to next post Re: The Journal of Jazelle Hawke Reply #1 on November 27, 2011, 01:13:19 AM January 14, 20097:56 pmTo my conscience,It's been about a week and a half since Johnny's disappearance, and nothing else has been discovered. His mom, Ms. Macalam, informed the police last week, informing them of his odd behavior and the shady group of older teens he started associating himself with. Incidentally, his new 'friends' are missing as well. The police are doing all they can about the situation, but since Johnny is considered an adult at age 17, it's not a top priority, or so they say. They also believe his disappearance was a conscious decision he made, so he's not in any trouble.I don't know how these things work. All I know is that Ms. Macalam and I are worried sick. She promised she'd inform me if anything new turns up on his whereabouts, but I'm not holding my breath. I don't know what to do. I feel terrible just going back to school as if nothing happened. I can't just sit here and wait. I need to do something. I feel useless.Ugh. Nichole is telling me to not worry about it: that there's nothing I can do and I should just focus on my schoolwork. It was his choice to go AWOL, and I shouldn't take responsibility for it. Church keeps telling me he isn't worth it, blah blah blah. I get it, alright?It doesn't make me feel any better, though.~Jazz Skip to next post Re: The Journal of Jazelle Hawke Reply #2 on November 27, 2011, 01:35:29 AM June 12, 20098:14 pmTo my conscience,Tomorrow I depart from Hogsmeade Train Station and head home for summer break. The past couple weeks have been a bit hazardous with exams and whatnot. Also I've signed up to be the new Hogwarts Players President next year. I'll know for sure if I'm accepted sometime next month. I really hope I get it: I've been wanting to contribute a lot to the club, and since I've been craving to put on shows, this will be the perfect outlet until I'm out there in the real world come next summer.That's a bit odd to think about, isn't it? In exactly one year I'll be striking out on my own, going to real auditions for real productions. It doesn't seem like it, to be honest. I still feel like a goofy kid who drinks coke through a straw and collects stuffed animals and squees whenever I see something fluffy.Anyway, I'm a bit too anxious to go to sleep now. I love Hogwarts, but I'm excited to stretch out on my own bed in my own room with full access to my electronics at my disposal. I get to see Nichole, too, although she's working a lot lately, so I won't be able to spend much time with her. Dad also said he has an announcement to make to Brian and me. I already know what it is, what with my stupid psychic abilities. I am not looking forward to pretending to be happy for him. I'd like him to be happy, of course, but with Shirley? Really? Does he not see what a poisonous creature she is? Ugh. I hope she doesn't want me to be a Bridesmaid or anything.~Jazz Skip to next post Re: The Journal of Jazelle Hawke Reply #3 on November 27, 2011, 08:05:10 PM July 16, 20097:30 pmTo my conscience,I took the plunge and started my mural in Diagon Alley. At first I didn't have a clue on what I would paint, but after a bit of helping out a fellow Hogwarts student, it suddenly came to me. His name is Kirby Krause, and he's a 6th year Ravenclaw. I had never met him before, but I had seen him around the tower when looking for Church. He's tall--ridiculously so--and has fiery red hair. I guess he's considered a ginger. He's a very sweet and talented boy who (after basically trampling me) offered to buy me some pumpkin juice. Despite our awkward meeting, I think I made a new friend today. He's going to owl me sometime soon: his owl is the cutest thing! It played along to the song Fernando by ABBA.Anyway, I'm going to go to bed earlier tonight, probably around midnight: so I can go work more on my mural tomorrow. I'm so filled with inspiration right now it's crazy! I haven't felt like this in months.~Jazz Skip to next post
The Journal of Jazelle Hawke on November 27, 2011, 01:00:57 AM January 4, 20096:27 pmTo my conscience,Tomorrow morning I go back to Hogwarts for the second half of my sixth year. Things did not go as well as I had hoped at the beginning of Christmas break. I couldn't get through to Johnny and now he's gone. None of us, not even his mom, knows where he ran off to. Even though I was the last one who saw him, no one blames me for his absence. No one expect myself, of course. I should have ran after him. The boy I love more than anything in this world... and I watched him go.I don't have the heart to write anymore right now. I feel... dead inside. I know it's cliche and melodramatic. But it feels as if everything that has kept me going these past five years; everything that has made me feel as if I could conquer anything, is just gone. Like that Backstreet Boys song, Incomplete.I just hope to God he's alright out there, wherever he is. And that he'll find his way home again.~Jazz Skip to next post
Re: The Journal of Jazelle Hawke Reply #1 on November 27, 2011, 01:13:19 AM January 14, 20097:56 pmTo my conscience,It's been about a week and a half since Johnny's disappearance, and nothing else has been discovered. His mom, Ms. Macalam, informed the police last week, informing them of his odd behavior and the shady group of older teens he started associating himself with. Incidentally, his new 'friends' are missing as well. The police are doing all they can about the situation, but since Johnny is considered an adult at age 17, it's not a top priority, or so they say. They also believe his disappearance was a conscious decision he made, so he's not in any trouble.I don't know how these things work. All I know is that Ms. Macalam and I are worried sick. She promised she'd inform me if anything new turns up on his whereabouts, but I'm not holding my breath. I don't know what to do. I feel terrible just going back to school as if nothing happened. I can't just sit here and wait. I need to do something. I feel useless.Ugh. Nichole is telling me to not worry about it: that there's nothing I can do and I should just focus on my schoolwork. It was his choice to go AWOL, and I shouldn't take responsibility for it. Church keeps telling me he isn't worth it, blah blah blah. I get it, alright?It doesn't make me feel any better, though.~Jazz Skip to next post
Re: The Journal of Jazelle Hawke Reply #2 on November 27, 2011, 01:35:29 AM June 12, 20098:14 pmTo my conscience,Tomorrow I depart from Hogsmeade Train Station and head home for summer break. The past couple weeks have been a bit hazardous with exams and whatnot. Also I've signed up to be the new Hogwarts Players President next year. I'll know for sure if I'm accepted sometime next month. I really hope I get it: I've been wanting to contribute a lot to the club, and since I've been craving to put on shows, this will be the perfect outlet until I'm out there in the real world come next summer.That's a bit odd to think about, isn't it? In exactly one year I'll be striking out on my own, going to real auditions for real productions. It doesn't seem like it, to be honest. I still feel like a goofy kid who drinks coke through a straw and collects stuffed animals and squees whenever I see something fluffy.Anyway, I'm a bit too anxious to go to sleep now. I love Hogwarts, but I'm excited to stretch out on my own bed in my own room with full access to my electronics at my disposal. I get to see Nichole, too, although she's working a lot lately, so I won't be able to spend much time with her. Dad also said he has an announcement to make to Brian and me. I already know what it is, what with my stupid psychic abilities. I am not looking forward to pretending to be happy for him. I'd like him to be happy, of course, but with Shirley? Really? Does he not see what a poisonous creature she is? Ugh. I hope she doesn't want me to be a Bridesmaid or anything.~Jazz Skip to next post
Re: The Journal of Jazelle Hawke Reply #3 on November 27, 2011, 08:05:10 PM July 16, 20097:30 pmTo my conscience,I took the plunge and started my mural in Diagon Alley. At first I didn't have a clue on what I would paint, but after a bit of helping out a fellow Hogwarts student, it suddenly came to me. His name is Kirby Krause, and he's a 6th year Ravenclaw. I had never met him before, but I had seen him around the tower when looking for Church. He's tall--ridiculously so--and has fiery red hair. I guess he's considered a ginger. He's a very sweet and talented boy who (after basically trampling me) offered to buy me some pumpkin juice. Despite our awkward meeting, I think I made a new friend today. He's going to owl me sometime soon: his owl is the cutest thing! It played along to the song Fernando by ABBA.Anyway, I'm going to go to bed earlier tonight, probably around midnight: so I can go work more on my mural tomorrow. I'm so filled with inspiration right now it's crazy! I haven't felt like this in months.~Jazz Skip to next post
The Journal of Jazelle Hawke