Waker L. Nolan
7th Year Girls Dormitory
Ravenclaw Tower
Hogwarts Castle
Scotland

Devlin M. Matthews

Dear Devlin,

I didn't want to write, but I wasn't sure how else to find you. I trust this owl will. The letter is cursed, should it fall into any hands but you're own. I'm sure you're on the run from Merlin-Knows-Who, doing God-Knows-What. I hope you're safe.

There are rumors going around school. I wish I could confront you in person. I know you and Fauna broke up-- it's easy enough to see on her face, even if we haven't talked. I think you owe her answers. I think you owe us both answers. It's absurd what they're saying, but it's... is it true? Did you date her to get back at me? To prove something to me? Why would you do that to her? Even you aren't that cruel. I've said terrible things to you, just as you have to me, but I know you have a heart in there somewhere, and I know you mean well, and I know you care about her. I know you care cared about me. You couldn't possibly have done something THAT awful. Or have you? Did I warn her for all of the right reasons? Why do you even care what I think? You never seemed to care much at all about anything since we broke up.

You write back and you tell me the truth, Devlin Matthews. Or you can figure out how to fix this mess on your own.

Best Always Take Care,

Devlin Matthews

Waker L. Nolan
7th Year Girls Dormitory
Ravenclaw Tower
Hogwarts Castle
Scotland

Waker,

I won't lie, after all this time, that was not the letter I wanted to receive from you. Nor am I particularly fond of  saying 'You're' right' to my exes. But, considering my situation, I don't have any legs to stand on. So... You're right. I owe you the truth, you deserve to know after everything else.

So yes, I did originally go after Fauna to make you jealous. I am not proud to admit it, but there it is. What you said to me that night, about not being capable of love or being loved, really hit me hard and I was determined to prove you wrong. I has this misguided belief that if I could become loved by someone like Fauna, someone pure hearted enough to love someone for who they really are and not their social status, then you would realize I was worth your time and would give me another chance. Of course looking back, I realize that the fact I had to lie about myself to seduce her made the entire idea of proving I was worth loving moot, but I think we both can agree I wasn't really thinking clearly in this situation.

Technically I did achieve what I set out to do. I am pretty sure she was in love with me at some point, anyways. It would have been so simple if it was just that, because then this whole mess wouldn't be such a huge deal (For me, which apparently all I give a damn about). Problem is that nothing is ever that easy. I fell in love with her Waker. Not stupid puppy love, but love love. I made the mistake of believing that I could continue with the road of life I have been on and still somehow keep a girl like that. I was so stupid. I still am. I fucked up so royally by lying to her, but by the time I realized that, the damage was too extensive. If I could go back and stop myself from pursuing her for such a selfish reason, I would. But like Fauna so aptly pointed out, I haven't gotten around to stealing a time-turner yet.

I don't really know what else to tell you. Telling the truth has never been my strong suit, we both know that. But yeah, I am pretty much a cruel heartless bastard that isn't worth anyones time. I'll be honest, I don't really know what to do anymore. I feel like I want to make amends and prove to her that I can be the guy I pretended to be.... but I feel like it is too late. She will never trust me again and I honestly don't blame her.

All in all, I appreciate your concern and offer to help, but I don't know that much can be done. I FUBARed this situation pretty well. You are welcome to talk to her, but I won't hold my breath on a positive result.

Thanks,