Fauna Blake
Dolton village, North Devon, UK

Devlin Matthews
Runnymede, Surrey, UK

Dear Devlin,

Hey. I'm sending you this letter cause, well, theres a lot I want to say and Ive always been bad at talking things out. In person. Or in any format really. So.. here goes.

I talked to Sophie at the mixer and heard what had actually happened. I'm not really mad anymore, after having a day to think about it. I mean, I was shocked that she said she liked you. I'm not sure what she told you, but I sort of understand why she... was a bit flirty. And then felt like she had to cover it up.

And I get it now, finally, that you were jealous. When I realized it I felt awful. Devlin, you really don't need to be jealous. I know ... easier said than done. Especially when you sorta feel like someone is stepping on your toes- stepping on your turf?

About you and Sophie... even though I get why you two were... flirty, seeing it just hurt so much. So I asked you about it, to try to... figure it out, and... well, you and Sophie trying to hide it made me think there was something going on. Like maybe you liked her. Which is... well I guess I shouldn't say ridiculous, because as much of a little sister she is to me, she's also very cute and friendly and i can see why guys would like her. I guess I sorta get insecure at times, because sometimes But sometimes I do wonder why you like me. Which is bad to say because we get along so well and I feel like we 'get' each other. And you've been so sweet so I'm not saying that to try to get compliments.  Just saying how I feel.

Which I guess leads into... I'm still new to this dating thing. I'm really, really sorry I didn't pick up on what was going on. I saw it as, well, Chance asking to dance just as friends. But Devlin, I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you. I hope you know that. If I'm doing something wrong just sort of... gently clue me in.

Not sure how to say this This is going to be the part of the letter that you probably won't like, but... I have to say it. Could you and Chance    I know that    After the mixer, I know that you and Chance will probably never be friends. And I don't expect you guys to be. But maybe... just... try to be civil to him?

I know that's not what you want to hear, but... my friends are important to me too. And that's really, well- he's my friend. You're my boyfriend. You know? So you don't have to worry.

Can I see you sometime soon. Maybe get together for that date we were talking about? Work ends around seven for me tomorrow. I might be able to get away early. Oh I have your holiday gifts too!

Yours,
Fauna

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Fauna Blake
Dolton village, North Devon, UK

Sophie Flickwick
London, England, UK

Dear Sophie,

I'm not mad anymore. I hope you aren't mad at me. I want things to be ok between us because, well, I don't want to lose you either.

I'm still trying to wrap  my mind around... you liking Devlin. Chance liking me. All the craziness that happened last night. It is a lot to take in and in case this isnt obvious, I am not the best at handling new things and surprises. I am trying, though.

I'm sorry for my cluelessness and part in the drama. I would say lets just forget about it, but I think that would do more harm than good. I think it's better to just face it and try to move past it. I know you didn't mean to hurt me and I didn't mean to hurt you either.

Love,
Fauna

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Fauna Blake
Dolton village, North Devon, UK

Chance Ryker
Galway, Ireland

Dear Chance,

First of all I want to say.. thanks for being there last night.

We didn't really... well, I didn't really have time to respond to you after you told me... how you felt. Well, maybe it wasn't about time. I couldn't handle it right at that moment. I'm not even sure I can handle it the right way now. But I feel like i should try and, that this letter might help. Because if I tried to talk to you in person I'd just. Well there's be a lot of mumbling and not a lot of actual words.

Thank you for telling me. I am sorta baffled-shocked-disbelieving but, after hearing it several times I really can't ignore it. I can't pretend you don't feel a certain way just because it would make things easier for me. If you  hadn't said anything youd still be stuck in the same spot and that is... it's just well, your feelings matter as much as mine do.

So I hate to tell you this. And I wonder if Im just saying unnecessary things at this point and you probably already know and that's why you had to walk away. But... i want to try to make things work with Devlin. I just started dating him and well, last night was our first real argument. As a couple at least. I do care about him and i don't want to give up on something after the first tiff.

But I did... sorta ask him to be more civil to you. In a letter. Because I'm a coward. I am sorry for letting him insult you. i realize that I have no control over his behavior but a decent friend wouldn't just let these things happen without speaking up. So I apologize for that and I will try to be better about it.

Anyway so... you mean a lot to me. It seems crazy that we've only recently gotten close. Like ever since SAWS and the egg project. But I want to keep on being your friend even though it's awkward and I don't know how to act around you or what the rules are.    I'm sorry I can't be more than that. I hope you understand.

Sincerely,
Fauna