Arcturus has asked Johann to keep a log for a fortnight to deliver back on November 18th, 2010.

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Wednesday November 3rd 2010 -
Thursday November 4th 2010
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Bedtime, 1am
Sleep, 3:30am
Woke, 6:45am
3 hours 15 minutes
Poor

Last caffeine 7pm
No alcohol consumed

Lycopodium x3 1am
Belladona x1 2:30am

Home for the night after the Ministry. Late deadline, worked until midnight. Anxious about appointment that day and Ministry work.

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Thursday November 4th 2010 -
Friday November 5th 2010
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Bedtime, midnight
Sleep, 1am
Wake, 4am
3 hours
Poor

Last caffeine 5pm
Two glasses red wine ~9pm

Alumina Asarum x4 11pm
Lycopodium x2 midnight

Full day at the Ministry around appointment then straight out to see clients. Home briefly before going to see B. Could not clear mind at all. Restless sleep due to nightmares.

4am should only exist if I've been awake all night. Feel exhausted on waking, would have been better off not sleeping. I have to be up this early to meet client at platform 7 1/2. Going to charge them extra next time. Got work at the Ministry after. Coffee to the rescue.

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Friday November 5th 2010 -
Saturday November 6th 2010
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Bedtime, 2am
Sleep, 3am
Wake, 4:15am, 8am
4 hours 45 minutes
Awful

Last caffeine 6pm
2 pints beer 9:30pm-10pm, 1 glass red wine ~11pm

Lycopodium x3 2:30am

After that stupid early start, it felt like a very long day on Level 5, hard not to end up shouting at someone. Actually, I did, but they deserved it.

Fell asleep unexpectedly at home at 5pm for an hour. Armchair not comfortable to sleep in. Woke feeling like I'd licked a badg disorientated. Out for the evening with my colleague, Roberta Pinn and some of her friends, though nowhere near the Leaky Cauldron thank Merlin. Decided to go home as soon as we heard.

Unexpected guest at home, so later to try and sleep. Slept lightly, anxious. Feeling like death warmed up, but work to be done, clients to see. If I'm lucky I'll nap later.

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Saturday November 6th 2010 -
Sunday November 7th 2010
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Bedtime, 4am
Sleep, did not
Wake, n/a
0 hours
n/a

Last caffeine 10:30pm
Abstained from alcohol

No potion.

After clients, spent the afternoon restocking in Diagon Alley by myself. Now home, with the thought to try and sleep, but got a rush job in. Feeling a bit shaky, excuse the handwriting. Expecting a long night ahead so going to have to make some coffee instead.

(Was more than a few cups of coffee.) I forgot to bring any sleeping potion to Balf with me. I lay down at 4am to sleep, but nothing. Even the company, the past few nights and tonight's late bedtime is not allowing me to sleep. I'm exhausted. That's actually an understatement. I can barely keep my eyes open to write and it's taking a lot of effort to write. The auditory hallucinations are angry, and very loud. I am contemplating going to fetch some potion, but I don't want B to know. Yes I know I'm an idiot.

Gave up trying to sleep at 8am. Claimed I had slept. Told Balfour I was going home to work. I'm not. I'm f-ed.

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Sunday November 7th 2010 -
Monday November 8th 2010
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Bedtime, 2:15pm, 11pm, 1am
Sleep, 3:30pm, 2:30am, 4:30am, 6am
Wake, 6pm, 4am, 5:45am, 7:30am
6 hours 45 minutes
Poor

Last caffeine 9:30am (Nov 7th)
No alcohol

Lycopodium x4 2:30pm
Belladonite x2 3:15pm
Belladonite x3 12:30am

Too restless and anxious to sleep. Going for a walk.

Came home when I felt my legs might give way. Just ta   n a hea  vy dos  e of lyc  opod iu ,

I followed it with Belladonite and finally fell asleep for a few hours. Just woken up, very nauseous on and vomited. Got to go have dinner with B, promised. Thought of it makes me want to hurl.

Shared dinner, but didn't eat much, feeling dizzy. Tried to stay quiet.

Felt restless an uneasy again after trying to sleep. Got up to take Belladonna and was sick almost immediately. Told B I'm just feeling unwell. Feverish, went back to bed. Horrible, violent nightmares. Did not want to eat on waking, acute stomach pain.

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Monday November 8th 2010 -
Tuesday November 9th 2010
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Bedtime, 1am
Sleep, 3:45am
Woke, 7:30am
3 hours 45 minutes
Better

Last caffeine 8pm
No alcohol

Lycopodium x2 12:45am
Belladonite x2 2am
Lycopodium x4 3am

Went in to the office but regretted choice. Have felt sick and barely eaten all day. Huge amount to do following the Leaky Cauldron incident. Late client appointment. Straight home to bed now.

Drank far too much potion, crippling stomach pain, but not been sick. Quiet morning at home. Not working.

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Tuesday November 9th 2010 -
Wednesday November 10th 2010
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Bedtime, 3am
Sleep, 3:30am
Woke, 7:30am
4 hours
Better

Last caffeine 2pm
No alcohol

Lycopodium x3 2:30am

Afternoon at the Ministry, followed by client work. Alone this evening at home, keeping to myself. Prefer to be alone. Very weary. Head too noisy to rest.

Once asleep slept deeply, feel a little better on waking. Out to meet a friend instead of working first thing, which I am looking forward to.

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Wednesday November 10th 2010 -
Thursday November 11th 2010
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Bedtime, 10pm
Sleep, 12:30am
Woke, 6:30am
6 hours
Good

Last caffeine 5:30pm
1 glass wine, 7:30pm

Belladonite x1 11:30pm
Lycopodium x3 12:00am

Worked the afternoon at the Ministry and spent a peaceful evening with B. We turned in early, but had to take potion to get to sleep, tried to take less but had to follow it up. Woke fairly early, though had to see a client early so for the best. Feeling a lot better in myself, a lot more stable. The worst is over again.

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Thursday November 11th 2010 -
Friday November 12th 2010
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Bedtime, 10:45pm
Sleep, 12:30am
Woke, 7am
6 hours 30 minutes
Good

Last caffeine 3:15pm
No alcohol

Belladonite x2 10:15pm
Lycopodium x4 11:45pm

Early client meeting, time at the office and then another client meeting. Not much time to rest, but feeling on top of things. Another quiet evening with B. Tried taking a little potion before I went to bed. No luck. Decided to take a large dose to try and reach a deeper sleep… which was a success. Lazier morning, no great hurry to the office, and feel in a very good mood.

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Friday November 12th 2010 -
Saturday November 13th 2010
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Bedtime, 11pm
Sleep, 11:15pm, 12:15pm
Woke, 12am, 3:30am
4 hours 15 minutes
Poor

Last caffeine 4pm
Two pints 6:30-7:30pm

Alumina Asarum x3 9:30pm
Belladonite x3 10pm
Lycopodium x4 10:30pm

Busy day at the Ministry, straight out to see clients and join friends in the pub to celebrate the end of the week. Trying not to drink too much. Noisy head, so took more potion than I should. Went to sleep quick though, and managed to get back to sleep easily, so no regret.

Up ridiculously early again for clients. Charging them more though.

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Saturday November 13th 2010 -
Sunday November 14th 2010
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Bedtime, 3:15am (ish)
Sleep, 4am (I think?)
Woke, 9am
5 hours
Alright

Last caffeine 7pm
Too much. 8pm-2am

No potion.

Long day. Out all night drinking and dancing with Liam and friends. Not quite sure how I ended up at B's. He wasn't out with me. Apparently I turned up about 3am, woke him up and he put me to bed.

Mother of all hangovers, and I have to go and see my mother. On the plus side, no potion. Small mercy.

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Sunday November 14th 2010 -
Monday November 15th 2010
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Bedtime, 11:15pm
Sleep, 11:45pm, 1am
Woke, 12:30am, 6:30am
6 hours
Ok

Last caffeine 5:30pm
Two glasses of wine ~9:30pm

Lycopodium x4 10:45pm

Spent the day with my mother, told her about things. Good to spend time with her, and I feel a little more at peace, though a little uneasy of what is ahead.

Woke early, another week begins. I've got a lot of miles to travel today.

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Monday November 15th 2010 -
Tuesday November 16th 2010
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Bedtime, 3am
Sleep, 3:45am, 6am
Woke, 5:30am, 8:30am
4 hours 15 minutes
Poor

Last caffeine 11pm
1 glass wine 10pm

Lycopodium x2 1am
Lycopodium x3 2:30am

In the office until mid afternoon and then over to Germany for the evening on family business. Unavoidably now have to work into the night. There is a huge amount to do.

Working again at home this morning. Stopped working at just before 1am, but mind still too busy to sleep. Woke up for a while in the night, not great sleep. Lycopodium is about the only thing making a dent.

Drafted my cancellation of my resignation.

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Tuesday November 16th 2010 -
Wednesday November 17th 2010
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Bedtime, 2am
Sleep, 3am
Woke, 5:30am
2 hours 30 minutes
F-ing awful

Last caffeine 7:30pm
Whiskey 9:30pm

Lycopodium x4 12:30am
Lycopodium x3 2:30am

Worked at the office and also for a client, toasting a new contract! More client work to do now though, tight deadline.

Gave up trying to sleep. Going into the office early to use the post owls and get a head start. Feeling wretched. It's all starting again.

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Wednesday November 17th 2010 -
Thursday November 18th 2010
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Bedtime, 11pm, 1:30am
Sleep, 2am
Woke, 6:30am
4 hours 30 minutes
Poor

Last caffeine 4pm
3 pints at the pub 7-8:30pm

Lycopodium x3 10:30pm
Lycopodium x4 12am (vomited immediately)
Lycopodium x3 1am

Out with friends at the pub after a long day at the office. Drank more than I intended, not looking forward to today. Lycopodium tolerance building, vomited because I'd not eaten, too harsh on my stomach. Coffee for breakfast this morning, thinking about food makes me want to hurl.

Don't keep me in. Please, Arc.

After the appointment, the log is to be kept still. However, I'm not detailing several weeks in that detail again, but Johann has dutifully done so.

In summary, he gains intolerance to more of his go-to potions and although he tries to forgo them, he struggles to sleep. The stress of the later days hinders things further.

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Thursday November 18th 2010 -
Friday November 19th 2010
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Bedtime, 2am
Sleep, 4am
Woke, 6:30am
2 hours 30 minutes
Poor

Last caffeine 4pm
2 glasses wine 9pm

Lycopodium x4 1am
Lycopodium x3 3am

Dwelling on the day, everything said, everything unsaid. On the fears of my mother, on what I am doing, what I am not doing. Of who I let down and what I will become.

They dwell too, the whole night repeating and heckling. Enough to want to tear my hair out. I want to drown them out, and the only way is with sleeping potion. I just can't otherwise.

Feeling rough this morning on next to no sleep, but much excitement for travelling. I hope I will sleep well in Marrakech with Balfour. Off to work very early so we can leave on time. Looking forward to surprising him and forgetting yesterday.

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Friday November 19th 2010 -
Saturday November 20th 2010
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... Marrakech

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Saturday November 20th 2010 -
Sunday November 21st 2010
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... Marrakech


Sunday November 21st - Wednesday December 1st (not much of note happening IC - London routine, experiments with cooking, squabbling with Pinn, Kelly and Hamilton at work, spending time with Balfour a lot at weekends, and sporadically during the week as their diaries allow)

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Wednesday December 1st 2010 -
Thursday December 2nd 2010
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Bedtime, 3am
Sleep, 3:30am
Woke, 7am
3 hours 30 minutes
Average

Last caffeine 9am
Too much. Firewhiskey.

Somniculose x2 2am

It's been a very hard day work-wise. I'm not able to disclose further here by contract, even if this is confidential. I've been abroad. Confining myself to quarters.

Had a bit much to drink, but goi   g to try this other p  tin

Merlin my head. F-ed. Taken headache potion. Got to travel to Aruba today. Going to be late.

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Thursday December 2nd 2010 -
Friday December 3rd 2010
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.. miserable. It's beautiful here in Aruba but all I can think of is home. Of B. How much I miss him. I don't care it's you who reads this Arc. I do, and the loneliness only makes it worse.

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Friday December 3rd 2010 -
Saturday December 4th 2010
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Bedtime, 11pm
Sleep, 12am
Woke, 1am, 3am, 5am, 6:30am
5 hours
Poor

Last caffeine 6pm
No alcohol

Lycopodium x7 10pm

Returned from Oranjestad in Aruba about 7pm British time, 2pm Aruba time. Hoping it won't knock my body clock out too much with only being gone a day. Good to be home. This week has stretched a long way.

Going to try the last of the lycopodium - a whole bottle. I'm pretty sure I've reached the end of the line.

Well that rather proves that. Slept in hour, two hours bursts, feeling pretty crappy. Not only did I manage to stomach that much Lycopodium, but it's not making much of a difference.

Early rise yet again to Platform 7 3/4 then out to collect groceries. Cooking for Balfour later. Looking forward to it! What work I have can wait.

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Saturday December 4th 2010 -
Sunday December 5th 2010
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Bedtime, 11pm
Sleep,
Woke,



Last caffeine 3pm
3 glasses wine 8-10pm

Somniculose x4 10:45pm


Today has been a good day, one of the best. After such a busy week, and being away I am content to be home. Cooked dinner tonight, all to plan. I feel happy, at ease. I hope to sleep well. Picked up more Somniculose today. Fingers crossed...